I LOVE NEW YORK.
Sometimes its just pandered about sloaganishly as if the city were somehow coddled by the comfort that its citizens care. Sometimes its genuine. Of course, one can live anywhere and find it to be a wonderful or a horrible place depending upon that person's general inward satisfaction with life. Its easy to find plethoras of issues within such a myriad wonderland as is this little wing of our universal fractal.
Its a hard city.
Sometimes, especially in the winter (which seems to have lost its general temerity this season), I feel a microscopic web like the veins of a dragonfly's wings spreading across and through my bones when I wake up and I have to get back to work after 4 hours sleep and 2 hours commute through cold, wet streets. Walking, standing, waiting on concrete waiting blocks; and my days off are spent in an apartment lucky enough to have one or two windows which filter what little light trickles down the sides of the snowy cloud banks into a grey courtyard of concrete and air handlers and through a layer of solidified smog stuck to their once tranquil and luminescent surfaces. I love New York.
I love New York because she forces the positive out of people in such a way that only the truly stalwart of spirit are left behind and the city brims with greatness all the way to its industrial shorelines because the only people who actually enjoy living here are natural winners. Competition is deadly.
I love New York because she leaves you no choice. "Take me as I am, you miserable bastard," she says, "because I am a city generated from the purest fires of passion. That is what makes you great."
One day, I'll leave this war zone of a city. When I become complacent. When I no longer have a drive to grow. When I become satisfied with the view from the plateau that has become my life, then I'll quit New York. Yet, even then I'll want a loft in the Financial District, a one bedroom in Tudor City or a little house in Bay Ridge with tenants who save me the attic apartment with a view of the harbor. Heck, I'd even settle for a gritty studio in the middle of Brooklyn with a grey winters' concrete view.
I'll always take care of the city that has taken such good care of me because I'm sure that as long as I love New York, New York will love me too.